It’s raya weekend and was in the office for a while yesterday hehe…The mood was quite solemn but still merry in few parts of Kuching. When visiting on Friday with my gang..It all started in the morning and continued till late evening..

So far for the record for Friday raya visits I went to a total of 13 houses within a day…Was so full and tired but was enjoying every second of it..Well at least it does take things of my mind for the time being…Now am still full till morning…Besides was able to do house hunting as well..hehe…looking around for new places where I can call my own

On the 1st day of raya, I went to my auntie’s house who was living nearby Masja…It was nice to see all my cousins and families are back together..Even one of my cousin do not recognize me as its been awhile seen we last met hmm about 14-15 years ago I think..I hardly met him and was surprised to see him and errmmm his family there…hmm..time flies man..and we ‘all grew up…The on the 2nd day raya just went to a friendly visits to a friend house nearby then went window shopping to The Spring and Crown Plaza…well was looking for sumthing but nothing much I can find there…Shopping alone wasn’t so bad..Ya u have people and couples looking at u..Hmm…thinking “Why is she alone?”  well I have money to spend no harm I guess and it a free country I go wherever I want to go..so i continue my journey loitering around till late evening..what a day huh? hhehehh

Unfortunately met someone i despised a long time ago during my Uni years…Didn’t expect to see her there…Whatever it is still can’t forgive her for what she did over the years…Hope u rot in Hell old fren!!! Dont expect me to forgive and forget..U made my life a living hell..Thank God I had friends who supported me back then…And I am what I am today..

I guess there will be another typical weekend for me Life must go on …Enjoying every second of it….

Yesterday I went thru my bank account…after tolak this n that my car, bills, cdt cards what else ah..oh ye… my house rent….wah..still a lot in hand ….hehe what to do next ah?

I’m so relieve I have a few toys to play with heheh… now I have my own laptop RM2k was a good invesment I guess hehehe…at least now i have a new status ..Single n availble I wont be so bored as I have another gadget that i can go online at home huhu…nice!! I’m loving it…BROADBAND huhuh….RM399..worth it…Lovely!!! A great belated birthday present for me heheh..

This month’s pay wah..best eh..my 1st Full bonus after 2 years of service heheh…what a blessing my 1st bonus was in 2006 where i only get 4 months since I reported for duty on 18 September 2006..well better than nothing rite?…wish my pay will be the same the whole year can best…smpi 4 figure heheh…hmmm How I Wish

I LOVE YOU…..

I love you, say we’re together baby, you and me

I can only give my life and show you all I am
in the breath I breathe
I will promise you my heart
and give you all you need if it takes some time
and if you tell me you don’t need me anymore
that our love won’t last forever
I will ask you for a chance to try again
to make our love a little better,
ooh…

I love you, say we’re together baby,
say we’re together, oh
I need you, I need you forever baby, you and me

You say you hardly know exactly who I am
so hard to understand
But I knew right from the start, the way I felt inside,
if you read my mind
and if you tell you don’t need me anymore
that our love won’t last forever, no
I will ask you for a chance to try again
to make our love a little better

I love you, say we’re together baby,
say we’re together, oh
I need you, I need you forever baby, you and me

Remember when you used to hold me,
remember when you made me cry
You said you loved me, oh, you did, yes you did

I love you, say we’re together, baby, say we’re together, oh
I need you, I need you forever, baby, you and me.

10 SiGnS Ur BeAu DoEsN’t WaNt U AnYMoRe…a thought i would like to share ….

Well I’ve read about this article in few magazines..One i came across in Cosmopolitan and Eh…well u can check it out in May n June 2008 issue..wander u can tell me whether its true or not….sigh***

It all started when…..
1. Regular SMS to…..NONE
2. Takes time to reply ur SMS or no reply at all…
3. Takes time to answer ur call and when he picks it up it takes bout less than 5      mins or worst REJECT ur calls…heheh…hmmm…
4. Forgot or Cancels all ur dates last minute from weekly meets to NONE…
5. when ur on a date..ur beau kept looking at his watch n HP…
6. u kept blaming urself for the change n thought it was ur fault for being
too ignorant n trying to make up for it..
7. Rather spends most time with frens than with u n telling u that he’s bz
8. Forgot ur bday or other special day
9. Never calls ur to ask whether ur okay or saying hi when u are away
sumwhere far from each other…
10. Stops saying ‘I miss U’ n stops calling u sayang…

hmm…points to ponder…there are more but i guess i’ll share only this 10 signs.. sigh**** HaPPy ReAdiNG…

Ungu - Waktu Yang Dinanti

cinta yang tulus dalam hatiku
membuang semua hasrat mimpiku
‘tuk bisa menyatakan sayang
‘tuk bisa mengungkapkan semua pada dirimu

tak mungkin bagiku ’tuk memilikimu
segala rasa yang pasti tak mungkin
‘tuk bisa kau terima semua
‘tuk bisa ku nyatakan rasa ku cinta kamu

ref:
ketika bunga tak bermekar lagi
dan dunia tak mungkin berputar lagi
saat cinta tak membakar hati ini
kau kan tahu betapa aku mencintaimu
betapa aku menginginkan kamu

tak mungkin bagiku ’tuk memilikimu
segala rasa yang pasti tak mungkin
‘tuk bisa kau terima semua
‘tuk bisa ku nyatakan rasa ku cinta kamu

repeat reff [2x]

It’s been almost a year now since I’ve been transfered to Kch.. I miss my old life well less miserable than it is now hehe ..i guess…Hopefully i am able to get back there soon..THought of continuing my study though..hmmm…better wait so that i can get a scholarship better still..not in a rush just to fill in my time here.

Life changes so much here, i’m still trying to adapt myself to the new environment…all this while ulang alik sibu je..after 7 years being independent and still now..going back to my homeland was indeed a major change in life..Finding new friends, new clique and etc..well its takes me a month to establish all that…the only best part is SOS from family kejap ja..not like before hehe…

The 1st half year was exciting…didnt really get bored easily since i’m always been occupied with so many meetings and program to organise..then rite after the election season was up, the momentum went down along with my mood and energy..must be drained i guess…both personal and work..

Now i’m in my 2nd half year serving here in my homeland..work so far more relaxed and i have ample time to review myself…Personal?hmmm….not much difference i guess..getting from bad to worst..and i’m getting older by the day heheh..well still enjoying though haha…sorg hancuss!!..entahla pa nak jadi..lost so much faith after too long…lama sangat kot..the other one..hmm..no komen..too busy for me i guess …well what to do..didn’t put much hope anyway…slowly cuba menceriakan diri hehe dengan aktiviti baru..we’ll see what happens..  :-I

My passion now is reading books…lama dah tinggalkan tapi Eja if you’re reading this..you can throw u Nora Roberts to me. hahaha…boleh habiskan tau!!…I Miss u a lot..pa ceta minah sorang ni kan?bila nak rasa nasi minyak u? hahah…siap highlight lagi tuh!! hahaha…

My New passion as well actually just started bout 3 days ago hehe…tetiba ada angin nak start jogging..dah boring dgr orang kata statement yang membunuh tuh!! hehhe..takpe..i nekad nak fit..hehe..kena positif!!!..Chayuk!! Eja n Mai mesti u all tergelak bila baca ni kan? haha…yela after grad 2005 i kurus bagai nak rak..org pun heran pe je ilmu i pakai sekelip mata dah kurus..haha..muka pucat lagi tuh..haha..

Since i byk masa terluang..dating pun jarang haha boleh kira lagi..ape lagi..Joggingla hahah…at least i can get things off my mind sementara i belum sibuk dengan program nih..Mesti menyibukan diri dengan program..hehe..tak sabar nak buat….I guess dah Penat sangat merajuk..kot2 dah fedup dah orang haha…baik i buat keja sendiri..malas nak menyusahkan orang dah..hehe…nak cari lagi malas pula…will end up the same way..baik tak payah…better still try to enjoy my time alone heheh….Hopefully by end of June, i hope to start to implement two of my unit nye Program..nak buat luar kch..boring eh kat sini..

I miss Dusip..haha..dengan aktiviti melepak di Sunway Pyramid sambil menonton wayang, window shopping dan scanning jejaka hahaha…lama tak buat…driving Kenari Merah ehheh

Next week plan nak gi cuti plak..nak buat pe cuti seminggu nih hah??…balik Sibu lagi best…itu pun kalo jadi..at least family ada tah yah i fikir benda pelik2..next week would be festive season at least balik sibu leh buat open house..kat sini takde sapa..lost in space terus…sangatlah berbeza time kat KL dulu..i didn’t feel exactly like this before…lum biasa lagi kot….

Anyway..that’s a short review if my currently less exciting life adventure here back home..Just want to wish those who are celebrating Gawai.. Selamat Hari Gawai Gayu Guru Gerai Nyamai..hehe..tul kot :)…Adios..

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